Leave Love

What would you do, if you know that you're with a wrong guy that you are very sure that you can't stay together forever with him because he's just not the one but you keep loving him more and more?

I know I'm going out with a wrong person. Because it's just so wrong. Everything went wrong. Nothing are 100% okay between us. Fight everyday over a small and ridiculous things to fight over. Fight every hour over a really small matter. Being mad for no reasons. Over protective to each other. Keep blaming each other. No trust, no understanding. We can't even tolerate. But we love each other so much. Is it really love? I was quite certain that it was LOVE. But now, I can't be so sure is it really love or just lust??

The CLEO October issue says:

HE'S OBSESSED BY YOU

He calls and texts to find out what you are doing every nanosecond of the day and when you're together, he wants to be hoding hand or cuddling all the time. You feel completely suffocated and wish he would give you some space, but he's too jealous to trust you to do anything without him. He says things like "I couldn't imagine life without you" but life without him is starting to look more appealing to you all the time. "Underneath all their passionate declarations and bravado, men who are prone to obsessive love are usually insecure, dissatisfied with their jobs, unhappy with their lives and angry with the world," says psychologist. "For them, love is like a drug which can heal them from their misery. That's why they hold on so tightly when they find a woman they see as 'the one'. They experienced life-or-death need for romance and attention. But if you're their partner, their nediness and demands are upsetting and crippling."

Dump him IF:

• He gets so jealous that he is verbally or physically abusive - he could really end up hurting you.
• You have started being way less indiependat just to keep him happy and keep the peace.
• He has nothing else in his life except you.

Well, the answer is YES for all "dump him if" statements above. Thank you.

But I don't wanna dump him because I also can't imagine my life without him! And I have became HIM. You know what I mean? No one understands my situation even my mum.

It's Gone Actually

I thought that I somehow still L him. Thought that he's still the best in my eyes. Thought that he could be the one for me. Thought that he's the only person who could mend my heart if something happened between me and my boy. The boy is O.

I was absolutely wrong

The feeling has gone. The excitement is no longer there. I thought hearing his voice after a year would make my day. But I just realize that I don't like him. Rather annoying although he's still the same as he was before. The joy of hearing his voice after a year in my previous post was just a feeling of meeting an old friend.

And I realize for how much I love my boy. For how much he meant for me. For how happy he can mke me be. Realize that he's the only guy that's perfect for me. I love him..

Remember this Giss, in case something bad happened..

"Be grateful for everything that happened. Because that means God doesn't want you to get into anymore trouble"

What Were You Saying?

Why is it so hard for him to understand me? It isn't like I'm talking other language. But he never really understood me at all circumstance. Did I speak duck language with him? I think I speak malay language. But he still can't understand me. At all.

When he asked me who understands me, I told him my best friend. Suddenly he said stupid things that hurt me more. We were fighting for many stupid things. Since this morning. Fight, ok. Fight, ok. Fight, ok. He said I was saying that my friend is more important than he is. He asked me to go to my friend who can sacrifice for me, be with me. Who were the one who's hard to understand. Me or him? I thought he's the one who leaves me for his friends! He hardly had time for me now. But I'm the one to blame for telling him the truth who really understands me?

I'm really disappointed. We're almost 1 year. But we don't understand each other. There's no understanding in our relation. No trust. That's the most important things. I know! That's why I don't know what will happen to our relationship. ='(

Missing Him

"Missing someone isn’t about how long it’s been since you’ve seen them last. Or the amount of time since you’ve talked. It’s about that very moment when you’re doing something, and you wish, you wish that they were right there with you."

Yeah it's true. It has only about 2 days that I haven't see him. He stayed at my house for two days, two days ago. But I miss him so bad. More than a word could describe. Like it says, whenever I'm doing something, I wish that he's right here with me. I wish he's holding me right now while I'm reading "How To Write and Speak Better".

Honestly speaking I feel like he's now unreachable by my bare hand. He seems so far away. We used to talk like more than 5 hours a day. But now, barely 50minutes. I miss him beyond words could say. Why does things has to change? I didn't say that he changed. I said, things. Which I couldn't tell in here.

I had a very bad nightmare. He's cheating on me. But I know he wouldn't do that to me, would he? I can't doubt him. It's bad. We're almost 1 year.. I should trust him..

How can we cry for missing someone who's still yours...??

Arrival of My 2nd Baby

There she is. So pretty! She came last two days ago. She's a gorgeous I tell you. When I first hold her, I feel like it's my first one! I didn't feel that way with my first baby. But when I open the envelop, teared the side of the paper, and there she is.. It sparkled! I swear!! And she is my Maybank credit card!! And when I hold it high, I swear it glows!

I solemnly swear that I will take a good care of you, honey.

Shoes

I want these shoes!!!