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I'm back.. So many things has changed since I last updated. Of course. It has been almost 1 year. I'm in new relationship. And he's perfect. He made me feels like I'm living in a fairytale. After everything that I've been thru.. The pain, the hard time, the past.

The break up part is hard with my previous ex. He wouldn't let me go that easy. He kept haunting me. He even came to my college to embarrass me. That's the last time I forgive him. Of course I didn't forgive him for embarrassing me in front of my classmates. But that's the last terrible thing that happened after 1 year and 3 months.

He kept bothering, kept coming to my house, kept calling, kept talking bad about me. He blamed me. He said I played him. Go die! I wrote what he did in this blog. But it was only 20% of what he did. He torture me EVERYDAY from the first I fell in love with him. And I'm sure it wasn't love. It wasn't me back then. How can I love someone who hits me everyday. It wasn't love. I'm sure he used some kind of black magic to make people love him. 

But the past is haunting me right now. My life is full with regret. I regret forgiving him. I regret being with him!! How can I erase that from my mind and from my life? My life is a lot much better than before. Why can't I just forget about my regrets? To be frank, I still hold grudge on him. But I'm not thinking about taking any revenge on him. 

My new bf is my everything. He completes me. He appreciate me so much. It's tough to move on with him actually. But I forced myself because I know he's the one. I thought of being single till graduation. But I know I won't find another guy like him. I made a mistake of leaving A before. I won't repeat the same mistake again. But the love comes naturally it self after a month.

But.. I'm still trauma about everything. I hate myself for that. 

Life is so much peaceful. My mum is happy now. And I got to spend more time with her than before. She's so happy that I left that bastard. And she's happy seeing me happy now. Currently rebuilding everything and pursuing to get a better life ahead.